For my entire life, I have almost always preferred to be reading a book. But these days, I find myself skipping pages and just wanting to get through the novels I used to love. Am I a 'broken reader'?
What happened to my lifelong love affair with books?
I set out this year to give more structure and meaning to my reading. Not interested in reading just for volume (How many books can you stuff down in a year?), I found a 24 countries in 24 books challenge that appealed to me. I added this book ‘group’ to my reading for my literary fiction book group. Then I joined a cooking book group.
How’s it all going? What am I reading that I am loving? This Boost I share my experience reading more widely.
Well, it’s been quite a bookish ride these last few months. I learned a lot and experienced some surprises.
Adapting my reading habits
I seem to be having a harder time getting into books. Perhaps my tastes have changed. I always loathed violence and can’t imagine reading horror. I don’t want to spend any time with characters or situations where people are physically harming one another.
An example is This Is Where the Serpent Lives Daniyal Mueenuddin. I liked the writing and the story at the beginning. But when it went into mob territory with its violence and toxic masculine hierarchy, I ditched it. Hardly any women present in the story, and I don’t want to spend any time/energy/life force of mine in stories where people are violently hurting one another.
A few pages into the Booker Prize-nominated We Are Green and Trembling by Gabriela Cabezón Cámara, there is a horrible scene which I will not torment you with. Suffice to say it was burned into my brain and it’s not doing anything good there. This makes it hard for me to want to continue. I will persist, because this is for my Boulder book group.
Also difficult for me now are what I’m calling ‘loose narrative styles’. Stream of consciousness writing, obscure plot, even if beautifully written, leaves me cold. Orbital was like sitting in a gorgeous extremely fancy, expensive car. Lots of oohing and ahhing over the gorgeous writing and some provoking philosophical questions. But as a reader I couldn’t help but say, okay, let’s go somewhere.
In so many books I picked up this year, I found myself itching to just get through it. Tempted to skip pages and just get to the end so I could be done.
A DNF was History of the Rain by Niall Williams. Reading it was like being in an Irish pub with endless tales told by old men, along with useless parentheticals about book titles and info. Lovely writing but it felt like scrolling rather than reading.
I found myself shirking longer books. This isn’t what I want from reading. I read fiction exclusively at night, as a way to shut off my brain and stop engaging with my life so I can sleep. But being annoyed about a book isn’t conducive to sleep. Lying next to me, Steve said, “It’s not an assignment.”
All of these things sound very good to me…in theory. In reality, I struggle to read these books. I question myself:
- Am I limiting myself by only wanting to read certain kinds of books?
- Why do I read?
- Why read 24 books set in other countries, why read literary fiction, and why read books related to food and then cook a meal from that book?
I read for feeling, to be moved by a character’s experience. I read to learn through story and empathy. I read because I enjoy the escape and immersion in another world.
Following the author as she navigated travel through the Dominican Republic and Haiti for a wedding was gripping. Getting a chance to peek into how different a Haitian wedding was showed me how over-the-top my country’s wedding culture is. In the Haitian village where the wedding took place, the bride wore the same dress that every other bride had worn.
I don’t want to give up any of these book groups, but I would like to enjoy it more.
How can I find books I really want to read? So far I have chosen based on nominations or awards for major prizes such as the Booker Prize. I get recommendations from the 24 books in 12 months challenge. That’s an unreliable source, as a lot of those are genres I don’t enjoy. I listen to these podcasts for inspiration and ideas:
Bottom line: I need to vet the books I read more carefully. That includes reading the first page or two to see if I connect with the style, voice and material.
I give myself permission to abandon a book after 100 pages. That’s plenty of time to know whether I connect or not.
Around the World in 24 Books
So, where have I traveled in my reading? In the first quarter, I read:
Slanting Towards the Sea
Lidija Hilje Croatia
A Wedding in Haiti Julia Alvarez Haiti and Dominican Republic Fun fact: I bought this at Alma Libro, a great bookshop in Puerto Morelos, Mexico. It was an ex-library book from a county here in Colorado. How a book can travel!
Elena Knows Claudia Piñeiro Argentina
Flesh by David Szalay the 2025 Booker Prize Winner. Hungary and England.
As Long as the Lemon Trees Grow by Zoulfa Katouh Syria
The Loneliness of Sonia and Sunny Kiran Desai India (currently reading)
The Artist and the Feast (titled simply The Artist in non-US editions) was a historical and feminist tale of a young journalist in a remote area of France. He’s on a mission to write a winning piece about a famous, curmudgeonly artist. But the caregiver, the quiet young woman tending the artist’s needs, turns out to be the main character. Her talents go far beyond patience and her story becomes much more compelling.
I learn a lot from ‘inhabiting’ other cultures and viewpoints. I have a greater sense of others’ lived experiences. This is helping me with empathy and more insight into how to interact with people from cultures I am not familiar with. I had been insensitive last year when speaking with someone from Syria.
Food and Books
Cooking and books. What could be better?
I was invited to join a cooking book group. This Denver group cooks a meal together based on the book they’ve read that month. So far, the first meeting was fun, interesting people, great food, and only three people, including me, read the book. Zero discussion of the book. I will go for the food and company and if any bookish talk happens, great. These are the books I’ve read so far for that book group:
Food Person Adam Roberts This was better than I thought it would be. A food writer and a celebrity, both down on their luck, are matched for a project neither of them wants. Lots of fun food writing and some depth in themes. Even though it's not my aesthetic, I loved the cover of Food Person.
Best American Food and Travel Writing Bryant Terry, editor It’s been a while since I read an anthology like this. Lots of rich topics about food and culture, particularly in the American South. I was provoked by an essay called, Great View, Too Bad about all the Tourists, which challenged me to think about my own tourism in new ways.
Random Books I Chose
Despite the challenges I have faced with my reading this year, I have read a lot. I am still engaged in the pursuit of a good story and books that change me. Here's a list of other books I read in Q1:
The Coin Yasmin Zahir I did not like this at all.
Fluke Brian Klass It's so crazy how much randomness is in charge of our lives. This book tells stories of how much life is guided by flukes and chance.
Marriage at Sea Sophie Elmhirst I gave this to Steve for Christmas. I read it while in Mexico, which was fun being by water and reading about being at sea.
Thinking in Watercolor Jessie Kanelos Weiner I had hoped this would help jumpstart my watercolor practice. While interesting, it did not get me going. It did help me connect with some of the resistance my students in Paris Sketchbook might feel when we give assignments. More empathy!
Our Polyvagal World Seth Porges and Stephen Porges The mind and body are fascinating! Re-reading this for my QEC learning.
A Beginner’s Guide to Japan Pico Iyer I love Pico! Short, poignant observations about Japan give me insights into the cultures there.
Kokoro Beth Kempton Still getting into this memoir but I trust it will suck me in.
Hidden Pockets in Kyoto Michelle Mackintosh and Steve Wide Such great recommendations for places I will look for while in Kyoto in May.
A changing reader
Overall, I have learned to slow down. My instincts at the top of the year were correct: focus less on quantity and more on quality. My reading also reminds me that novels aren’t frivolous or optional. Fiction gives us a direct path to empathy, and that’s something we can bring to real-world situations every day.
Overall, I am not a 'broken reader'. I am a changing reader. Thank goodness, I am still able to grow, learn, and change.
Where I get my books
While I try to buy books new so the author might get a penny or two, I as a former second-hand bookseller, I rarely buy a new book.
Denver Public Library
Boulder Bookstore
The Bookworm
Better World Books
ThriftBooks
Pangobooks
I never buy from Amazon and I try to avoid ABE books, which is also Amazon.
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I haven’t answered these questions yet, but I wanted to share them with you for any habits you may have let fall to the wayside. If I were to resume, I would use this notebook, which I found on my shelves while searching the archives.





This time, I had an experience in France that begged to be written. I did it, and I feel a shift in my creative agenda. I feel less focused on where a project will go. I am more in love with the feeling of engagement I get when I am working on a creative project. Even if it’s just for me, I get enormous joy from it.